I’m sitting in my bedroom, overlooking the rain-soaked patch of earth that is my garden. My daughter is kicking a ball against the weather-beaten fence. Next-door’s dog is taking great offence to this childhood act of play. She kicks the ball harder.
The grass needs cut, the Lilies, Violas and Marigolds are emerging from their winter slumber, and when the lawn is neatly trimmed, I tell myself, the garden will be back to its former glory.
On my lap is a notebook, my favourite kind; A5, lined with a margin. In my hand, I hold a pen. It’s one of those with four colours; green, blue, red and black. I only write with black. When the cartridge has run dry, I will leave the pen in the kitchen drawer where it will come in handy for jotting down phone numbers and the like, should the need arise.
I’m supposed to be writing a piece on the topic, recalling. But recalling what? I could write about the many gigs I attended, the bands I saw, the motorcycles I rode, the laughs I laughed, the tears I cried, the loves I lost and those I didn’t, or maybe about the girl who lived in the big red house. But I won’t.
I tend not to dwell on the past. The human mind is a mysterious thing. With the passing of time, it will convince us that the good times were infinitely better than they were and it will tell us that the bad times weren’t as bad as we thought. In the archives of the human mind the rainy days are always sunny and the snow is always a foot deeper. No matter how much we know better, the mind will convince us otherwise.
For me, the past is the past. Yesterday is history; it cannot be altered. Tomorrow is tomorrow; who knows what it will bring. We can do little but live in hope. We can hope for peace, we can hope for an end to hunger and we can do our best to bring about these changes. But will they happen? I hope so.
There is much to concern us about the world we live in today. But if one dwells in the past or lives in the future, it will bring only stagnation. So, personally, the solution to this dilemma is to live in the day; embrace each moment and fill it with as much joy and creativity as I possibly can. If I can get through today without offending anyone, if I can add to someone’s day without looking for anything in return and if I can live creatively, today will be a success. If not, well, I start again tomorrow.
Recalling is not on the agenda for me. Why not?
Simple; I only have today.
If you are depressed, you are living in the Past.
If you are anxious, living in the future.
If you are at peace, you are living in the moment.